Volume 40 ~ 2017

 

                  

Maddie Cervera

Arrested

 

     My sister and I peeked around my mom’s leg, latching on like hungry leeches.  We were fascinated by the man’s shiny badge, “Jefferson County Police,” in bold gold letters. When my mom called my brother upstairs, the monsters in black uniforms asked him to remove his shirt. Reluctantly, he revealed his wounds.  A seat belt mark stretched from shoulder to hip, and bruises covered his arms and abdomen.

     She covered our eyes, but we peeped through the cracks and watched the man tighten handcuffs around my brother's wrists. “I’m sorry,” he said, looking into my mother’s eyes before they pulled him away. I fought to get around my mom and reach my brother. I plucked at her fingers, trying to release her tight grasp from my arm.

     The next few nights were restless. My parents screamed, and we saw my dad throw a carton of eggs and smash bags of chips. On my way to school, my sister and I walked passed the auto shop. We always recognized it by the big pole in the front.

     From far away, it was gone, but as we got closer, we saw the pole resting on the grass, not a dent or scratch, nothing compared to my brothers car. We crossed the street to get a closer look. I kicked the pole as we passed, and looked back to see my little sister do the same.

 

Blurry Visions

 

In the field, there's a stump that stands

two feet tall. The surrounding trees look down on it.

My mind is in the cemetery. The broken bark

 

of the stump is a grave stone, and the trees

are humans who stare down in sorrow and mourn.

 

As my vision blurs, I see my friend. She smiles,

her brown eyes contrasting with the blue sky. I extend

my arms, but no matter the stretch,

 

I’ll never reach. When my eyes go foggy again,

I already know the sight is slipping

 

from my weak grasp. Now, her purple shirt

has slowly faded into the purple lilacs

on her grave.

 

 

 

The Pig

 

     Reese’s teeth chattered. She held her head in quivering hands. “What are we going to do? What are we going to do?” she mumbled repeatedly, rocking back and forth. A dead pig sat at our feet. Blood dripped down its body, reaching the cracks and soaking in deeper, leaving dark red stains. I wiped the sweat dripping down my forehead with the back of my hand. Each drop ripped away my mask of courage.

     “C’mon Reese, let’s go,” I shook her shoulder, “I need your help,” I looked down at the bloated animal and my nose crinkled in disgust. The thin shirt pulled over my nose was no match for the smell seeping through. We each grabbed a back leg, trying to avoid the bullet wound, although we already had its blood on our hands.

    Reese yanked her hands away and whimpered, “This wasn’t part of the plan, I can’t do this.” She started crying into her hands again.

     “We need to drag him to your jeep and bring it to the river.” I tried to talk Reese through the process, and she only nodded.

    We trudged through the back yard, dragging the pig by its legs and leaving a trail of blood on the yellow grass. Reese and I each grabbed a side of the pig,  “Okay, 1..2..3.. Lift!” I grunted.  

     It rained only two days before, and the river was flowing quickly. We arrived just before the scent in the jeep became unbearable. By the time we unloaded the pig, time did not matter anymore, it was too late. Reese’s mom would come home and see the blood, and my father would stutter up the steps to my bedroom.

     When the pig sunk to the bottom, we sat on the cement edge and dipped our toes in the cold river water as the minutes passed. More than anything I wanted to say, “Let's run away,” but I knew Reese’s weak heart would say yes, and I couldn’t do that to her.

     Without exchanging a word, we rambled home to face the consequences. With too many things to think about, I let myself be mesmerized by the dirt trail behind our tires. We drove past my house. I saw the chipped pale paint, the broken attic window, and the red rocking chair on the creaky porch. I noticed my father's rustic pickup missing from the back. My stomach knotted thinking that he might be at Reese’s house waiting for me.

     We grabbed hands and walked towards the front door, our steps in unity. Mrs. Davis was startled by the creaking door. “Hi, Mom.” It was the first time I heard Reese’s voice in hours, and it was different. Mrs. Davis turned and scooped us into her loving arms, supporting our heads with her hands.

     “Lilly, your dad was driving home today, and he was involved in an accident.” She swallowed hard, “He died.” A tear almost trickled down, but I was never going to cry a single tear for him again. They stared at me, waiting for a reaction; a single word or cry. The rosey color in Reese’s cheeks came back to life, and I could feel the weight lift off our shoulders.

     Earlier that morning,  Reese and I put one bullet in the dusty shotgun Dad kept in the basement. We left early, making sure to get to our spot in the tree’s before he walked by. My father walked crooked, swerving and tripping over his own feet. “He’s really drunk,” I whispered. I felt comfort knowing that maybe he wouldn’t feel the bullet.

     Reese held the gun to her arm socket, something she learned from the forced hunting classes with her brother. Her hands trembled. “Do you want me to do it?” I asked.

     “No.” Determination and hate filled her eyes. Then the gunshot fired, startling both of us. My father turned his head to the boom, and without a second thought, continued to walk to work.

     “You didn’t hit him,” I said. Her eyes got bigger and her hands shook.

     “I hit the pig.” I leaned over to peek through the small branches Reese could see from. Mr. Walter’s pig had wandered into the field that morning. We walked up to its lifeless body lying in the blistering heat.

     A few days after the funeral, I looked up at the bedroom window where it first happened. I went in the house and lit a candle with Dad’s lighter, and set the curtains on fire. As I stood back, I watched the old wood catch fire. When the windows blew out and pieces of thick glass flew in the air, I fled to the river.

     Reese sat next to me on the same cement edge. We didn’t talk. The river flowed faster than days before, and the pig was gone.

 

Pearls For Pearl

 

     Pearl’s palms are soft and perfect. Our fingers interlock, and her small hands are only half the size of mine. I compare her splintered pink polish to my smooth magenta.

     As Uncle Ryan swings the door open to the dimmed room, we are hit with a gust of expensive perfume. Pearl says, “It smells like Grandma in here.”

     She asks me what we are doing in this mysterious place, and she knows to whisper because of the quiet sniffles and clicking of high heels telling her so.

     I just squeeze her hand, and when she squeezes back, I know she is okay with my answer.

     I scoop my little cousin in my arms, more for my own comfort then hers, she rests her head on my shoulder because of the tears rolling down my cheek.

     Pearl adjusts herself in my arms to look at me. All I wanted to do was count each freckle that covered her cheeks and nose and imagine myself swimming in her ocean eyes. “Where’s Grandma?” she spoke, revealing the gap between her teeth. She doesn’t yet understand why we are here. We walk through the aisle, making our way to Grandma’s casket.

     Pearl’s eyes were wide, staring at Grandma’s powdery skin. “Look,”  The ivory pearls caught her attention. She pointed at the necklace lying on Grandma.

     “I think she is wearing those for you, Pearl.”

 

One Night of Perfection

 

I met my best friend

by the pond of Meadow Park

 

We made megaphones

of tube slides as we raced

to the bottom,

 

and braided each other's

sun kissed hair while sucking on

pink popsicles.

 

Each morning she demanded Fruit Loops

and waited at the window for something

that rarely came.

 

Beda left the red ones to drain

into the grinding razor, only because

those were her mother’s favorite.

 

When her mom finally came home

in the late hours of the night,

we watched her lather the

 

pearly pink lipstick onto her luscious lips,

slip a black dress over her defined curves,

and wiggle it up to her armpits.

 

Her thick hair grasped the curling iron

and twisted strong enough to strangle,

releasing beautiful curls of

 

damaged hair. We watched her leave

again. I woke in the middle of

the night, missing the warmth

 

of Beda’s body in the little

twin size bed.

When I creeped to the living

room, Beda and her mom lay

on the couch wrapped in their own

 

perfect world for just one night.

When her mom would slither out from her

grips in the early hours, I would slip my

 

body in her place and wrap my arms around

my best friend again.